The point of this blog was to bring to you my current situation--within the realm of discernment. If you all have followed me to this current blog, from previous blog about my Salesian Experience, then you know of my slight mind block. If you aren't aware of my previous blog...never knew it existed, I will now explain what happened (in the shortest amount of time possible).
About 2 years ago I asked for an application to become a Salesian sister, now mind you previously the Vocations director stated she never gave applications to girls who she thought didn't have a religious vocation. I received the package and filled it out with fervor perhaps with more umpff than I had ever done anything in my life. I mailed it back on the feast day of St. Therese de Avila, expecting her ecstasy to rub off on it! In April, I went for my interview, but was not accepted.
I felt like I had been stabbed in the stomache several times and felt like part of who I am got thrown out of the window. I have to admit, I lost faith for a few months....I know, I know, God never deserts you---but it felt as if I was abandoned.
Okay, Okay now lets fast forward 2 years.
I have since returned to the love of God- and fall more and more in love with him everyday. I know I say that I am discerning---but to tell the truth, I have known since I was little that I am God's Girl.
As I am writing this current post I am at a come and see discernment retreat with the School Sisters of St. Francis- Panhandle. I was so overly excited to return here after having had a brief visit with them in August. I woke up like 3 hours earlier than I needed to. And when i arrived I was at totally surrender to the Lord, my heart opened up and I felt happier than I had ever before.
Each minute makes me not want to be anywhere else...My mentor Fr. Jordan keeps telling me to ask for entrance---But how does one gain the courage>>>after having been through 2 small rejections and 1 disheartening one. Trust in Jesus. Trust in Mary. Trust and Prayers for the courage!
SMILE!
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