I DID IT!!

I have officially closed down my facebook. No more publicity for me! I will kind of miss promoting things that I have passion for, especially theatre. I suppose now though, I will promote the love of God through different ways---its a change in balance! That's all!

It was hard closing Facebook because of all the friends and people I have met. But, through a couple different conversations, I have found out that those so called "friends" are all mostly acquaintances. I mean, I knew that to one extent because girls from high school, whom I never really associated with added me...I have no clue why I added them, we never talked on Facebook either. I have written down some email address of those, whom I don't have and who I feel particularly inclined to at least TRY to stay in contact with. We shall see what happens once I enter.

Twitter, Plaxo, 4marks, and tumblr are also now non-existant. I actually feel a little freer and want to throw my cell phone in the harbor, too---BUT living in the city and doing so many things, is preventing me from doing this.... just yet.

Today I started whittling down my belongings, and getting rid of things I never use, or don't particularly need. I started to get nostalgic, which is most definitely something I need to go through. I started looking at my few stuffed toys that I have had since I was 2, and where they might end up---I hope Fievel makes another child very happy.
       Then I came to my mom's stuffed racoon, I don't have very many memories of her, or belongings for that matter...couldn't seem to give it away---My sister ought to keep it safe.

      Finally I came to my porcelain dolls! My grandmother started this collection when I was about 7 and I have quite a few. I know some will definitely go to my God-daughter (My beautiful FAITH doll...red hair and a golden dress and trumpet), and maybe a few to my sister. Then there is the doll my grandmother gave to me on my 16th Birthday.The last one she was alive for...Its a child holding up the "I Love You" sign in sign language---I am wondering now, how she knew I would be working with children who communicate through sign language? It's amazing how these things appear! I can't seem to think of where this doll should go...I have taken her everywhere! Camphill, a trip to Califiornia, Camphill School, she is like my safety net--a guardian angel of sorts. Perhaps I can bring her with me? I have yet. to ask this--- in time!

Something inside me started clicking though, like I would be willing to give up everything  to surrender myself to his will~!
To Be a Bride of Christ!! My friend found this picture yesterday and emailed it to me. I started tearing up when I saw it. How long have I longed to be His? and now its going to be a reality?! I am still almost in disbelief!

The Ultimate Surrender of LOVE!