I am back!

     To my readers: I apologize for having been gone for so very long.

When I had entered with The School Sisters of St. Francis, I had to close down all of my social media sites, including tumblr, blogspot, and facebook. After, I left the convent (more on this story later) I quickly found a job as a live-in nanny for a family with 3 boys, 2 with Autism.
I worked with this family for 6 months before deciding that I need more time to discern where God is calling me. That job was close to 60 hours a week, barely enough time to sleep let alone pray. So, I returned back to my families home in Baltimore and was lucky enough to secure employment at a coffee shop--- YAY for having past experience as a barista!

I am now starting to discern religious life again, this time with a lot more fervor and a more definitve answer that "YES, I am called to religious life!"

Now to find my home on this earth!


Let the journey begin....Again.


God Bless You all!

Death to New Life

Ever since my acceptance I have been over-joyed...floating on  air, my desire to do as God has willed is finally coming true *tires screech* which means, wait a second... This means that I must die. Not physically die, but die of myself. What I have built up to be (worked my tail off is more like it), what others perceive of me, AND everything that I thought I might be. I literally have to create a new slate__erase EVERYTHING that I know now, and prepare myself to learn everything that will be thrown my way.

I had trouble with this at first, thinking,well you can still hold onto your life, you have pictures, you have plays, you have things that make you YOU...surely you can take some of those things with you when you enter.

I was slightly mistaken. I am only to bring those things that will better me as a Sister, those things that will help me to grow into my new life...my new identity. I must prepare myself for this death of self...and eagerly (yet patiently) wait for the birth of a new self. This is done yearly at lent, you let go of some vices in order to prepare your heart for the rising of Jesus, so that you may better understand his agony and the scourging that he had to go through. But to totally give up ones-self, for Him___ just takes your breathe away.

My Home!

The Shrine Daytime!

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The Shrine at night :D

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"Offer it up" ???

Life is very interesting these days. I am now an assistant 2nd grade Catechist at my parish AND am the Respect Life Co-ordinatoor (you email the archdiocese about one thing and you wind up having a title?). I am very excited about both of these things, quite excited about everything that is going on in my life...but something inside me seems off balance.

I often feel like hopping a plane and going to Texas, like right NOW--- part of me wishes I lived closer to my new home! It is so far away and so expensive to travel all willy nilly.  This past week, for some reason has been especially hard...and I am really having a hard time explaining or understanding this. When I think of how far way entrance is, I start to tear up (its a great amount of time for family and friends, but for me...sooo long) wishing it were next week! 

My God-daughter and I will visit in April, and even that seems too far away. I guess it's probably because I have wanted to be with God in this way  for so long, and I am finally close to having it but it will NEVER be close enough, well maybe if it were next week it would be! 

I guess I will just have to offer up my yearning and continue on with the patience that God has graced me with---as hard as it might be! 

God Bless You ALL!

Superstah---no more

Yesterday my beloved "Superstar" key chain broke in half...all the letter beads that formed the word fell to the ground.


I am convinced that this is a further sign of my vocation, I am no longer striving for personal attention from others--- I am striving to give attention to those who might need it :D

Also, while cleaning out my files--- I found papers. Remember those papers that I thought I had put away, but couldn't find while filling out the application? Yes, those papers, God has a sense of humor, that's for sure!

personal catechist?

A lot of interesting things happened this past week. None of which I am going to put into words. Sometimes events make you so over joyed or so exasperated that you can't even begin to think of the words, perhaps in another week it will make more sense and I will be able to write about it---until then I will keep you in the dark.




These are your seven deadly sins--- most people who are Catholic know them, and a lot of other Christian denominations do too.


I have taken on the project of being a personal catechist to my God-daughter. She has been asking about Penance and First Communion for a while now, and nothing has been done about it (she is in the 5th grade, went to public school the year this was supposed to happen). It is like pulling teeth though, she says she really wants this to happen but when it comes to projects and assignments, she just won't do it. "It's boring". Well my dear learning about your faith takes dedication and a little bit of work~


This will be a fun ride.